Today Hope and I went to Shaws and bought a mini milk, two apples, and a twix bar. We then went to the park and got out those + honey nut cheerios and bowls and spoons and bread. We ate cereal shared the apples and fed the birds. I was smiling on the inside and outside. I can't wait for school but oh how I might just miss summer.

I have fallen for the sweetest, most beautiful, most amazing, smartest, girl in the world ...

just thought I'd let you in on the secret.

I'm in Iowa .. hope you have been reading my travel blog on heyjosh.com or looking at pictures

I swim across an ocean
It's my matress in the basement
I'm sweatin' out excuses
That would make your stomach turn
The road we drove last night
Stretched from the desert to Las Vegas
We filled our cups, and lit one up
The snow began to burn

Oh, Oh maybe, we were made
We were made for each other
Ahh, is it possible for the
World to look this way forever?
Ahhh, Ahhh...

today after I got home from keyclub, I watched my sister open presents, then I went and bought the fuse I needed to fix my car and changed it myself. Then I went and swung on my swing which I haven't done in a really long time. Then my sister came out and we layed in the grass and talked.. I've got a good feeling :-)

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I might try a couple things here.. I need more time in my day

I have a couple goals for 2006 ...

1. Read more! No, I am not illiterate, but I do read slow and my vocabulary is slipping, I can't talk the way I should and I feel like I can't understand books the way I used to. Solution? Read more! Problem... Books are boring! Solution... Read non-monotonous books and instead actually read books for fun :-)

2. Get outside more, I admit it might have been a little over the job snow shoeing new years eve, But I want to see the world and get out of Southington. THere is absoultely nothing wrong with Southington, infact its perfect and thats the reason I need to see other places. With getting outside includes taking more pictures. I want to have an "arsenal" of pretty pictures and I want to be able to look back at memories.

3. I am going to take changes, make mistakes and make more mistakes. I don't know if anyone has seen A walk to remember but in that movie that girl Jane or Janice or Janny, whatever irrelevant made a list of all the things she wanted to do, and it was just random fun things and I realized that I dono how much time I have to do that stuff. So we better get workin on it. When is the last time you let under the stars, When is the last time you took a picture underwater. I am gonna have a list and cross them out everytime I do one.


yea... http://heyjosh.com/list.txt





oh yea btw http://heyjosh.com/you.html ... thats yoU!

Well, I had a dream last night that I had cancer, and I was going to die before I was even like 20. Then like things started dropping in place and I asked like why and they said that you sorta knew it and thats why you were involved in everything and didn't sleep very much because you had to like make up for it. I dono it was really weird and scary but I have to say I sure hope it doesn't come true. I don't really know it kind of scared me into thinking that I need to take better care of myself and appreciate things more. I didn't skip breakfast this morning I drank an instant breakfast. I got to school today later thaN I've ever gotten to school but I was still not late. School was awesome aweseom because mr. cipp ordered an amazing computer that I can use for video editing and I cannot wait for it to come in. Like seriously I am already counting the days and the order hasn't gone in yet. Other notes on today well, we ordered chinese food at the academy and it was really good but I was really hungry so I overate and then on the bus I read the whole way home and I ended up not feeling good so when I got home I layed down for a little bit and then ended up oversleeping to 7:30 and showed up at the robotics meeting 1 hour late but it didn't really matter much. I have rekindled by winter spirit of making videos except I want a new video camera or still camera for christmas except like professional one so I can either get really into video editing or photography for a professional hobby. I have been to rocky hill a couple times and it been really fun and I think I am starting a band there with some people that are there. It would be really fun. I like going there its like an escape from all the pressures of parents and stuff. Nothing against southington but there is just something for doing everything on your own. I hope college is like this because its very liberating.. ok i am done ljing there is only 10 hours of usefulness in a day and mine has way been used up... so no use trying to think peace out homie folk

i dont want to grow up.

i dont want to have to worry about money

or things that before were always hidden from me

i like being in the dark about somethings.

i dont want to be an adult

with adult like responsibilities

and adult like thoughts

i still want to see the world through a rose colored lens

i still want to get excited over things like kittens and sunny days

i want to see snow as something to play in, not something i have to shovel.

i want grades to equal presents and money from my grandmother, not what is going to determine my future

im just, not ready for all of this quite yet.




copied from my friend from ma livejournal.. but so true :-(

i've wrote in here twice on two different occasiona and I keep x'ing the window out and losing the entry :-( I am stupid ...

haha go to http://heyjosh.com and click on blog if you wanna know about me